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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Pre School Jitters.

I'm having way more anxiety for school starting this year than I did before the start of last school year.

Last year, I had no expectations. I knew nothing. So everything was good.

This year I have expectations and I know nothing will look like I am expecting it to.

I'm at a new school with a new principal and new teachers.

I didn't get to choose this school, I was just placed there.

I was going to have one class, and it changed last minute, and it was partially my decision and now I'm regretting it. The option was given to me way out of the blue and I didn't know anything and I should have asked for a night to think about it, but I didn't, and I know it will be fine, but I'm still mad at myself for saying I would change my class.

Everything will be different and I want it all to be the same. Aside from the whole getting layed off thing last year, it was a fabulous year. I loved everything about last year.

A new year will never be able to live up to last year.

I'm trying not to have expectations. I'm trying to go into it with an open mind, an "everything will be fine" mind. But for some reason, I can't.

I am terrified and I don't know why.

4 Comments:

Blogger ms.understood said...

I felt the same way beginning my second year, and I feel the same way this year because I am switching grade levels... My second year was a hundred times harder than my first year, but it was its own adventure. I know I am more prepared for this year because of last. You'll do fine with whatever this next year has in store!

10:11 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My second year was harder and easier at the same time. I had the most difficult time because I was no longer a "first year teacher" and that title had become such a safety blanket for me. Almost like no one expected anything of me because I was a newbie. As a second year teacher, I switched schools to a more demanding (as in the admin expected more from the staff than at my previous school) school and I personally, expected more from myself. Those two things, combined with the fact that they gave me a new class, in addition to the 2 I was already teaching, 2 days before school started made my second year far more challenging than my first.

The nice thing about your second year is that you've done it already. Things aren't as new, even at a new school, and you'll surprise yourself with all the little things you learned during your first year! Happy prepping!

-Mrs. Sigh Ants

6:56 AM  
Blogger miss bioteacher said...

when does your school year start? I'm staying at the school I taught at last year, but still find myself freaking out about too many things and I don't start for another month. I'm mostly excited, but I can't help but be nervous (I'm teaching a different class too).

Good luck! Don't be scared... if we survived year one, we can definitely do well during year two.

3:54 PM  
Anonymous Tracy said...

It is normal to be apprehensive. But now that the year is upon us I am sure you will jump right into the swing of things at the new school.

5:19 PM  

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