Pre School Jitters.
Last year, I had no expectations. I knew nothing. So everything was good.
This year I have expectations and I know nothing will look like I am expecting it to.
I'm at a new school with a new principal and new teachers.
I didn't get to choose this school, I was just placed there.
I was going to have one class, and it changed last minute, and it was partially my decision and now I'm regretting it. The option was given to me way out of the blue and I didn't know anything and I should have asked for a night to think about it, but I didn't, and I know it will be fine, but I'm still mad at myself for saying I would change my class.
Everything will be different and I want it all to be the same. Aside from the whole getting layed off thing last year, it was a fabulous year. I loved everything about last year.
A new year will never be able to live up to last year.
I'm trying not to have expectations. I'm trying to go into it with an open mind, an "everything will be fine" mind. But for some reason, I can't.
I am terrified and I don't know why.